You are missing the point it you think self improvement will save you.
This is never going to happen. Freedom is only here now and the question is how do you want you now to be, how do you want it to sound, how do you want it to smell, what do you want it to mean.
Do you want it to be alive, to feel alive to feel as fresh and vital as it only logically should be. Then see the adventure, talk yourself into it if you have to.
Because this is it baby. This really is it, try to let that land for a moment. No regimen will ever let you to see that only you can let yourself see it, you are holding the keys right now, you always have been